Yesterday, I had a stressful day.  It was the perfect addition to my very stressful week…….
On second thought, make that 2 weeks.

We’ve all had those.

It seems like you just can’t catch up.

Your mind is constantly running, even in your sleep.

There are so many things you WANT to do, and then there are so many things that you HAVE to do.

Well lately, I’ve been caught up in the Have To‘s. Apparently, the Want To’s had to take a back seat!

I’m juggling. Playing several roles, wearing many hats, and feeling like I’m not doing a great job at any of them, because I‘m torn and I’m spread thin.

Mother, work horse, miracle accountant, student, cook, maid, psychiatrist, blogginista, law breaker (long story short, forgot about a traffic ticket- word to the wise, don‘t ever do that) and lets not forget grieving widow (my sweetheart passed away 2 years ago)…

So here I am, a jack of all trades, master of none.  Uh oh, are feelings of inadequacy slowly creeping in my personal space?

Well, after my stressful day I was driving to go pick up my daughter and I all of a sudden swerved into the gravesite where my sweetheart is buried.  It was obvious that I was lead to this place because it brings me too much pain to even visit, so I don’t. 
But yesterday I took a sharp right turn at the last minute and swerved in there like someone crazy. I parked, found my sweetheart’s grave and sat down next to him. No one else was around, the wind was blowing, the geese were actually honking, there were wind chimes singing, the flowers were blooming and the blue sky was absolutely beautiful.

And then a funny thing happened.  Instead of pain, I felt peace. There were no worries, no stress, no inadequacies and no balls to juggle…just peace.  I felt loved and appreciated.  Wow…I actually found peace at my beloved’s gravesite, which is something that has never happened before.

At that moment of realization, I saw several little flickers of light all around me and I knew it was him. The wind was whispering sweet “I love you’s” in my ear. He’s still helping me and loving me from Heaven, reminding me that I‘m not alone.   I don’t have to take on everything by myself.  I have help. We all have help! Angelic helpers that guide us everyday.

My sweetheart brought me out there to help me find peace.  He was telling me to slow down, put down the balls and stop the juggling act for a moment.  Let go of the pain and stress for a just moment and just BE.   How often do we do that?

When did I stop incorporating peace in my Have To’s?  I’m big on prayer and meditation, but you know how life can get in the way sometimes and therefore, prayer and meditation may unfortunately take a back seat.  After all, none of us live perfect lives.

So where do you find peace?

How often do you take a moment, and do something just for you?

What do you do that brings you peace?

When is the last time you’ve experienced peace?

I challenge you to take a moment to reflect on your life and daily routines.

Ask yourself this question...
Does peace have a place in my heart?